I have always felt out of place in this world. I have always felt that my life was to sere a greater purpose than I have been told. I have always felt a stronger spiritual bond within myself and only certain other people. And yet I never put my finger on it.
March 26, 2011 was the day that I woke up from my spiritual slumber. I have tried various religions and spiritual practices and always fell back to Christianity. I put my faith where I thought and was taught to believe. Yet I still felt empty and always wrestled with who I was and where I belonged. I have not always been comfortable with he knowledge that my christian beliefs were marred or flawed because I would not subject myself to a church or organized religious affiliation. I know that everyone is entitled to his/her beliefs and practices, but I never felt a sense of belonging until now.
At first I struggled with the fact that I have always been an open clairvoyant person. Secondly I struggled with teachings that bound me to religious practices or policies. Last I struggled with the belief of absolutes. No I am not denouncing my belief in God or the manifestation of truth, but I am shedding the boundaries placed by the teachings of absolutes. By this statement I am saying that evil does exist, but it is not an absolute, and good exists as well, but it is not an absolute.
People who choose to be led into believing like this can and will hurt those who will not conform to what they believe to be normal. Now I will explain they hurt they inflict. People will ostracize, criticize, belittle, beguile, and overall tell others they are wrong for thinking outside of the narrow scope society has set forth as a precedent for being normal. With that said I am not normal, and will never be able to fit within the narrow scope of their reality. I feel free to be who I truly believe I am supposed to be, now who I am told to be.
What do I feel I will gain by studying the craft? As well all understand, but studying we can gain knowledge, and that is power of its own. How one uses that knowledge determines if they truly learn and grow, or they become stagnant and lost what they have learned.
I also want to attune my spirit to nature or the world that I submerse myself within every day, help others by healing or sharing the knowledge that I gain over time and grow in. I will do my best to not lead those seeking astray for my own personal edification.
I am not walking this road alone. The God and Goddess will be my guides and Shauna will be with me every day until we are parted in death. So I am looking forward to this journey both physically and spiritually. I AM READY!
Revisit 9-26-12
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